Just over two years ago, I was sitting in a cubicle thinking to myself “If only I could quit this job to work for myself. Then I’ll really be happy.”
I wanted this lifestyle so badly that I let it cloud reality. This was 100% the wrong way to think about life. No matter what my situation was, I needed to be satisfied with the here and now.
I quickly found out that there had to be a level of contentment to gain in order to accept where I am (or was) in that exact moment.
Just last month, I got so overwhelmed with projects and to-do lists that I actually thought “if only I could go back to a 9-5 where I could leave work and be DONE for the day.” I envied the time when I was able to clock-out physically and MENTALLY.
How crazy does this all sound? Back and forth, back and forth. I’m sure all of us can relate on some level. Wanting what you don’t have is a vicious cycle. It’s a constant battle if you don’t have your priorities straight. In a way, this is all a desire to seek and gain pleasure when times are tough.
When this happens, I have to remind myself of why I’m choosing this lifestyle. It’s not about having a perfect life, but one that fills me with joy more often than not. Truthfully, there is no way I’d go back—at least not right now.
Nothing you choose to do will ever be rainbows and butterfly’s ALL THE TIME. I guess sometimes it’s just easier to not deal with your problems and visualize yourself somewhere else—in a different life. It makes sense but there has to be some balance and acceptance.
I think it’s normal to question your decisions and fanaticize about what life might be like if you had chosen a different path. Or look at those around you and just picture what their life “feels” like. There’s a lot going on around us, especially with social media glamorizing what life should look like—people traveling, buying houses and doing a bunch of cool stuff. It’s hard not to want what you don’t have.
Everyone has their problems—even people who look like they have everything figured out. We have to look deeper into ourselves, be grateful and love the life that we have right now.
Do you ever struggle with wanting what you don’t have? Comment below =)
“Do not spoil what you have by desiring what you have not.” – Ann Brashares
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